WHERE AM I GOING??

I haven't written in awhile ~ confused, depressed etc. I started this so that I could figure out what to do, where to go (figuritively mostly). I find that when I think about these things it just makes me more depressed so I just avoid, avoid, avoid, avoid. Thats what I do best - I have perfected the fine art of avoidance ~ need any tips, just ask. I am an expert at avoiding ~ I don't know why . . .is is any easier to avoid? NO, definately it isn't! If you are considering taking on the role of AVOIDER - please I beg of you, don't do it! It will only bring you pain in the end! I can promise you that, from many, many years of experience! I don't know what is wrong with me, and quite frankly I can't stand the whole "self pity" thing, it just makes me ill, but then why do I find myself surounded by these experts in the "woe is me" lifestyle - chicken little mentality! So, according to Dr. Phil I am somehow getting a payoff from this. OK. Well then I wish it paid more, because right now I sure could use it!